Control

Dear amazing Soul,

These past weeks I’ve been through a rollercoaster, into a shift.
Letting go of all there was, but this time for real.
All my fears came by but also all my desires. I saw them in a flash, I felt the pain.
I felt the fear, the happiness all this, while the knew year already started.
Only in my reality the knew year hasn’t been started yet, it starts at the 17th of February 2026.
The day that the horse truly comes into the year.

What happened during these, eye opening weeks, was that I wanted to take control of everything in my life,
while it’s out of my hands. Even today while I write this down is everything out of my hands.

I know what I desire, what I want in my life, how my dream life looks like and how it doesn’t.
Because let’s be honest, we cannot know with our mind how everything looks like, that is control.

And holding onto it has no point, because when we lose grip, we lose control or let it go,
things even get better, more beautiful. We will be more amazed.
That is what I’ve learned  and has shown me in 2025.

So yeah I’m more grounded now, still feeling the fear, because fear can be let go while it truly happens.
I am now at the beginning of my dream life.
I take the steps that I can take, while waiting for everything that is not in my hands.

I am working on my website, creating a safe sacred sister tribe.
Creating a coaching way that I only can bring with my soul, with my heart.
More than that I cannot do, is out of my hands.

I am waiting for answers and while waiting I am creating.
Stepping out of the fear while I am accepting it.
Letting go of the ego and control, so I can recognize it while letting it go.

Let me say it’s not easy to stand still, while it’s important because even when we stand still we grow.
I hate to stand still, because I don’t see or feel the growth, while everyone around me says, you’ve been grown.

So standing still is necessary so we can look into our fears, into our soul, into our growth and see what we’ve been through.

And on that moment we see the growth and can be more thankful than before.

I am grateful for everything in my life and how it will go? I let go of that, I let go of the fear.
I let go of the control and start to live my life again in a flow by heart, just the way I desire.

Where are you grateful for in life? What is it that you truly desire by heart?
Where are you afraid of? And where do you still hold the control?

With a lot of love
Souljourney Sharon